Mysterious…still holding on this sea.

Did you really want? No I didn’t…
The movement of my sphere stumbles on wished desires that aren’t always what how I structured them. So I can resolve this in two different ways: Or accept it as the wished desired fulfilled or rejecting it and looking for another one.
Inside the accepting option, I will have, consciously our unconsciously, always the notion that it’s not the exact right piece for that place on the puzzle, so I can accept reality or adapt perception of reality – one leads to deception and settling for less, the other with denial and distortion.
In the rejection option I may stumble on some other three options: frustration for not finding something at least as good as the one denied and so being able to settle for even less (bigger frustration); finding something different that is not even better or worst than the previous, not comparable, but delivers the same level of satisfaction than the previous so the sphere has to settle for the same amount of satisfaction (indolence); or really finding something better (sometimes looks as an unreachable task)!

Should I retune my frequencies and settle for less or should I keep a high standard and hope that the last option comes to life?…for now, I will keep rolling and not settling because my purpose for the year doesn’t allow me to become dishonest and honesty delivers a opposite for towards indolence!

“It’s always the same, wake up in the rain, head in pain, hung in shame, a different name, same old game, love in vain, miles, and miles and miles away from home again.”
The Cure in “The edge of the deep green sea” from the album Show

I.M.H. somewhere in “The edge of the deep green sea!” (Probably one of my favourite songs from The Cure, especially the version performed in Show, but never forget A Forest)…