To you I dedicate The Rapture...yes, I'm dedicating it to you "b".

Picture by Jonas Bendiksen

Taken from http://www.magnumphotos.com/ on the 25th of October 2005 at 3h13m a.m.

“I hope there is someone…” Antony sings in I’m a bird now
In a week I believe I’ll be in complete exhale after listening to this incredibly but so positively disturbing performer that simple embraces my senses with such deep feelings that I will never be able to express, just fell.

23 hours ago, I took all I had and used the word in my “fathertongue” that simple resumes the most amazing feelings I can evolve for someone. How heavy words can become in our existence, but how heavy can we make this words appear for someone else as saying and using it means so much to us (cause I barely used it in my life, at least with this meaning)…

For years I’ve used written words to communicate, as I thought it was a correct way of functioning, so pure as my existence…but a huge friend confronted me with the fact of all this being thought and weightned…how un-spontaneous it can be…how rational and un-emotional, and now her words make so much sense to me. On the other side, this is a way of throwing out in the world all I feel in a subjective way…all I am feeling, trying to reach out persons or person…
I wanted to publish a specific picture I composed, but I reserve it for our privacy, cause I made it for you…so here stays a picture from a photographer I recently got to know and recommend to visit his site http://www.jonasbendiksen.com/ accompanied by the song of Antony and The Johnsons: Man is the baby (the white spots on the picture are butterflies).

I.M.H.

P.S. – And Killa, let me dedicate you Bird Girl performed by Antony and The Johnsons, just because I feel like. I dedicate it to you and to me too.

"The Rapture" is performed by Antony and The Johnsons in the album Shirley and Dolly Collings

I can fly...but I want to fly with her.

The rain in dropping in a diluvium way outside...I love rain, mostly when I’m listening to music on my headphones and stand outside feeling every drop that falls on my face...
Listening to this song, so many times “vandalized” on the radio, simply makes me feel like I’m jumping off buildings (“Gabriel” performed by Lamb).

So I have not much to tell all of you, only that my sphere is stuck in-between everything and nothing…I wish I could fell that everything is in it’s right place, but it’s not…I can not love you the way I wanted cause you don’t want that right now…and I wanted to give you so much. And I wanted to make us feel so free…but all this is just between us and not this blog world. Lets just dance...

For all of you that come around here and w.a.s.t.e. your time reading this, I can only thank you for spending time here, even this past month I do not have much to say. Right now I just want to feel the rain on my naked skin…
Love you all for being there for me…

Imploding the Mutants Hysteria

Weather...

Time is passing by…and I’m revealing less F.E.A.R….and I think which spheres are coming closer to me…I realize who I have and who I don’t have with me…some are so close that I’m not able to see them. Others I gently pull closer to feel them…some are afraid of my sphere, sometimes I’m so afraid of my sphere not knowing why.

But I’m gaining something…The river swallowed a lot of me the past two days…I haven’t slept much in the past nights. Life has been testing my limits and reliability and capacity of resistance in between the strongest emotions and weather changes. I’m still standing, like a dead tree…………………

Thanks to all of you. M. & J. I was specially touched by your testimonials…you can’t believe how important you both are to me…Killa, for just being there being yourself…AGGA for making it all worth, for being yourselves. A., the Orion connection, you know how much I love you.
And you, yes you…let me embrace you and feel the Lamb...and dance, dance in the middle of the desert while the night takes over and the sand feathers around us.

I.M.H., a very tired one…but fulfilled one for having you all.

P.S. – Patrick Wolfs, “Weather” I dedicate to all of you, performed on the album: Wind in the Wires.

Disintegration...and The Lake *

Photograph by I.M.H. and Time Fractions

What lies behind the curtain? I’ll never know if I don’t look…so much light coming out of there…but what kind of light? Will it illuminate me or, on the other side, blind me? The fear of blinding makes me avoid the possibility of illuminating…so I usually choose the safest path, focusing on the possibility of mistake and not on the possibility of success. But I smile, because as the curtains dance in the wind and sweetly ask me to peep inside, I glimpse at what possible awaits me through that half open door…shadows that dance and giggle…one day I’ll reach the last song of the album and I wish I can only say I saw what was behind the curtain…while another smoothly dances in the night, with another kind of light…“Untitled”, performed by The Cure is playing on my headphones right now…and I hope you are already profoundly sleeping while this track is playing and I move towards the last night smoke, where I will be listening to “Tulips” and “Two More Years” performed by Bloc Party.

I.M.H.

* "The Lake" is performed by the Antony and the Johnsons

"Special needs" - Placebo

3h36m a.am….I’m a bit drunk and listening to We’ll Float performed by Polly Jean Harvey in repeat…and of course I can think of nothing but you…cause I would like to taste you while listening to this…but instead, I taste silence and air…like my ex-soulmate told me: everyone has what it deserves!

“But one day, we’ll float, take love as it comes!”…and I took it but stumbled on it cause I’m too immature to handle it with distance!

Me wanting you...with distance and silence. I.M.H. - "Remember me? Special needs, suckers dreams(...)" Brian Molko sings in Special Needs but what i really wanted to dedicate to you was the song: "Without you I'm nothing" not that i believe in the title but because it's one of the most amazing songs ever written, for me.